anagram 05.10.99
the 1st pic in
here is a robin's egg my mom gave me. she found it sitting on the ground by
her mailbox. it wasn't in a nest or anything. she said that the egg will eventually
dry up inside if I leave it alone. I wish it would hatch into an itty bitty
bird! I remember one of the few things I've regretted in my life was when I
was little and somebody showed me a robin's nest in their bush and told me not
2 touch the eggs. and later on I went there and took the eggs out of the nest
and buried them in my sandbox 2 hide them and keep them safe. later on I went
2 go dig them up because I felt bad and wanted 2 put them back in the nest,
and of course they were crushed. I still awful that I did that and I don't know
why I did it. I told that story 2 my mom on mother's day
I think it was
the first time I've ever told her or anyone that story because I felt so guilty,
and my mom understood and told me a story about when she was little she put
this tiny frog she found into her pocket and when she got home the little frog
was dead and my mom said she has felt awful ever since and wondered if the frog
was in a lot of pain when it died. just thinking about it makes me feel awful,
too. I know why something like that could stay with u all your life making u
feel guilty. my poor mom.
she called me up today to tell me how much she had fun with me yesterday. I'm
so glad my mom and I are starting 2 get along better now. I hope we get 2 be
good friends like we used 2 be. we used 2 be like sisters or best friends. my
mom has a password into ana2 now, but she told me she couldn't remember her
password. I retold her what it was so I wonder if she'll ever read this. but
she doesn't seem 2 have much of a yearning interest 2 come and look through
here. although I know that she has read my analects and those had disturbed
her more than my nude pictures bother her. she doesn't like my "whores
of babylon" story or my "new age" way of thinking.
jason came home today from his 1st day at his new job and he said he really
liked it but he is very stressed out trying 2 learn more about PERL. he bought
a ton of books on it and was reading them all night long, calling up his friend
2 discuss it with and stuff.
I wish there was something I could do 2 make him happier. so I've been just
trying 2 stay out of his way and be as mellow and quiet as possible, focusing
on campix.
my mom gave me this fantastic giant glass pear that I'm going 2 use in my next
album cover. I wanted 2 get it from her because I want 2 call my next album
"my fake pear". I wanted 2 call my last album that but my record co.
hated it. but I'm glad that I got 2 "save" that title for my next
cd, especially since "my fake pair" are now more known..so people
will get the joke. I think I've already written about what I want the next album
cover 2 look like. I'm not sure.
argh, my back is in knots. time 2 go 2 sleep soon. I'm going 2 put this anagram
up them go 2 bed.. it's 11pm. jason went 2 bed an hour ago, he has 2 get up
at 7am.
his job told him he could come in any time, as long as he puts in 8 hours
but
if it's after 10am he is supposed 2 call.