anagram 04.30.99

hi :) I'm getting ready 4 bed and I thought I better make an anagram first! so here's some pictures from the last two days. I've still been sick..but it's the tail end of it that just won't seem to end. just a general feeling of great exhaustion that I can't seem to shake. I fell asleep for most of the afternoon today, and when I awoke I finally felt a BIT rested for the first time in a week. now jason is sick, too, and I feel bad that I gave it 2 him. argh. it's been so beautiful outside and I haven't even gone out 2 enjoy it much, I've been too tired to even move. I can't wait until I get my energy back. maybe tomorrow I'll have it back , I hope. they are replaying that "women of the net" thing on E! right now. it's so cool that they play it so much! it's weird 2 think that was almost a year ago! I was so frickin out of it on midrin during that interview and I when I think back on it I can just feel all that lip gloss on me..wayyyy too much lipgloss.
jason had 2 friends over last night and so did I, so that's why I put all the filters on because the company was shy. jason's friend was a girl from portland he hadn't seen in awhile and she brought over a friend. and my friend's that came over were carolyn and renee, the bass player and drummer from my band The Blue Up? I hadn't seen Renee in over a year! and before that only once in that year. it's so awful how little I see them. And they are like my sisters, my tribe, so I must make it a point 2 see them more often! I really want 2 get together and play music with them again.. I want 2 just goof around and play covers and not play live. but the thing is, we don't have anywhere 2 practice. so I don't know what we can do about that. practice spaces are kind of expensive. we used 2 pay the cost of our practice space by playing shows, but we have no desire to lug around heavy equipment any more. carolyn doesn't even have her bass , she now plays accordian. but I don't care, we could have accordian instead of bass. we had so much 2 discuss, they were over until 3am! and that's late 4 them 'cause they aren't nightowls like I am. I'll have 2 tell u renee's paranormal stories sometime. she has a TON. u can hardly believe the things she has witnessed and experienced. she and her whole family get abducted a lot by the grey aliens. it's exactly like the book "communion" by whitley streiber. if u haven't read that book, I highly recommend it 2 all of u cynics. I totally know that those aliens are real. hundreds of thousands of people each year are abducted regularily.
I don't need any more proof to know it. it's pretty obvious if u look at the facts that are all around us in every culture for thousands of years. in fact, whitley streiber has a website, I think it's www.whitleystreiber. com. they made a movie from his book, but the movie is just awful.
I'm drinking ginger tea. it's so hot in my living room. way hotter than outside. I have the windows open, but no breeze is blowing. I keep looking up at my cam picture and I look like a zombie staring at my computer monitor like I'm mesmerized and horrified. I have so much more 2 say but I don't have the energy 2 type it out. so I'll end it here. I've got 2 get back 2 typing out my journals again. I know I keep saying that, so I hope I start doing that tomorrow, at least just even a little bit.