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i added a big cam5 to ana2
i am super hyper. my mind is buzzing with ideas. too many ideas. all my energy is taken up trying 2 prioritize these ideas and try 2 figure out ways 2 realize them. and while i do that , i clean. because none of this stuff can happen if my house isn't clean. when i get things clean i will work on the unvalentine's again. and i will put mp3s of my music up for ana2 members if i can figure out how 2 do that. i will type out my journals. and i will make stuffed animals. i don't know when the cam pictures will get interesting again. i never know when that will happen. it makes me nervous when i go this long without making cool cam pictures. it makes me feel like it will never happen again. i get nervous that everyone will unsubscribe and i will end up penniless...like stuart smalley is alwyas talking about ( u know, the skit from sat nite live :)
but things will come when they are ready. i can't force anything. this i know, at least. it's about the only thing i do know. so i must trust in the universe that everything will be ok! i have so much energy in my body that is screaming to get out in the form of words or something. but that's not going 2 happen right now. this is just a time for me to get my physical surroundings organized, which also helps me to organize mentally, too. as u know, it's all connected. so i hope u will all bear with me as i go through my spring cleaning process!
i don't know if i should go into bed and watch tv and try to slow down my brain, or if i should just keep organizing. 1/2 of the thing room is now in the hallway. i finally hung up my clothes on hangers. i need more hangers. now i need to fold all my t shirts and leggings and separate all my socks and tights and scarves, etc into their own compartments. and to put all the misc. computer wires and things into one box. then put all my music wires and stuff into another box. i'm going to fold all the cords nicely and tie them with pipe cleaners. if i could get a long enough telephone cord to hooko my computer in the thing room up to my telephone line, i could have a cam6 for the thing room. i also need to iron all my clothes and sew up all the rips, but that could take a year, so that will have 2 wait! :)
journal typing and stuffed animal making. those are my things i want 2 do. plus i need another camcorder so i can start taping things to turn into little movies and upload them for u. my god. so much so much so much! and while my brain explodes with all of this my cameras get neglected. funny how that works.

 

things i wrote in my livejournal today:

Friday, April 28th, 2000
10:25 pm i just added a 5th cam 2 ana2 :) and it's really big! (640x480) now i'm watching space ghost :)

8:19 pm wow, i cleaned a lot today! but now most of the thing room is in the hallway again, but i can get 2 stuff and i can get 2 the windows 2 open them, and there's a nice breeze. gonna take a break and watch the movie "pi" with jason. i really need a house. there is just not enough space 2 put all my stuff. i have no where 2 make music or paint or sew clothes without throwing everything into the hallway, it's insane. i'm trying 2 make sense of it. on one side of me i am energized and optomistic and excited and the other half of me is so exhausted and wants 2 lay on the floor and give up. it's a strange dichotomy battling inside me. confusing. wish i had some beer.

6:14 pm vacuuming vacuuming. i feel really emotional today even tho intellectually i am trying 2 suppress it because it's too draining 2 go where my emotions are. and tori just wrote me an email saying that there si a big thing going on astrologically right now. she says", there are 5 planets in taurus right now, all the seen planets, mercury, venus, mars, saturn, and jupiter. it's bringing up a lot in people." does anyone know anything more about this? i found this remix of my sing "hollywood" that i really loved but never made it onto cd. remixed by john strawberry fields. it was ny fave, but no one at the record label liked it so i couldn't get it on the remix cd. i am going 2 try 2 figure out how to make an mp3 of it with audio catalyst so u can download it and have it. i want 2 play it for u right now but i can't get the cd to broadcast with my realpublisher. i can get my microphone working and to broadcast my voice, but i can't get the cd part working. ergh. so much 2 figure out! i wish i had a personal assistant who could help me with these things.

5:04 pm i am running around from room 2 room cleaning, so it's hard 2 stay on cam. it's 63 degrees out. but in my apartment it's about 80 degrees!

3:15 pm i can order a gallon of ladybugs for 65.00 (72,000 ladybugs???) and i can order PRAYING MANTIS'!!! the cases ( each case containing hundreds) is only 9.00!!!! god! i want them! but how could i keep them in my house??? i don't need several thousand praying mantis! but i would like one or two! www.bugfarm.com

3:10 pm i'm reading my email and the my forums. i didn't know u could order ladybugs by mail! www.bugfarm.com

2:51 pm woke up. groggy. i dreamt i met this science fiction filmmaker named 'pales in blue". that was his first name

5:34 am ok, i'm in my bed now fiddling with my filters. jason will be awake soon 2 go 2 werk. i wish i had some blueberry turnovers 2 eat...i am so hungry...

4:59 am ok, i swear i'm going 2 bed now, i swear!

3:42 am blinkity blinkity blink! how on earth did it get 2 be almost 4am!! i was gonna go 2 bed at midnight! oh horror! gonna tuck the dogs in and get 2 bed right now! argh, why can't i just go 2 bed at a decently normal hour?

2:51 am well, i tried 2 make my own style of page, but i failed. i am trying 2 understand how 2 make this page my own but can't figure it out. i saved as style as "anavoog-lastn-new" whatever that means! here is what i was trying 2 do: www.anacam.com/test/newstyle.html

12:46 am i just posted a big thing about www.lomo.com into concretewaffers livejournal. tried 2 cut and paste it into here but it didn't werk. so nevermind! just go to www.lomo.com and check it out :)

12:38 am ok, new anagram for ana2 up and new analog for anacam up :) and now i can start 2 get ready for bed! everyone's starting a livejournal and i think u should too!