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[20 Apr 2002|07:05am]
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[20 Apr 2002|02:56pm]
in about 2 hours i'll be leaving to go out to dinner ( sushi! ) then to the laurie anderson show. i'm very curious to see what it will be. from what was told to me it is very stripped down and simple. the last time i saw her it was very stripped down and simple, too. it was more like she was a storyteller/comedienne than a singer, songwriter or musician. it was very hilarious :)
i am procrastinating getting ready. i feel sleepy and i'm a putzer. drinking diet dr. pepper with spiderman on it's can and listening to remixes of bjork's "all is full of love".
i woke myself up at 7am today because i was talking in my sleep. i was yelling at my mother in my dream. the sentence i spoke out loud was , "i'll never see you again if you don't apologize to me!".
i know the rest of my dreams were bad, too..but i can't remember them...only feel them stuck in my body still.
a few days ago i had a dream about a duckling cracking out of it's shell and then i held it in my hand...all warm and furry.but i knew i had to return it to the nest soon or the mother would abandon the nest.
i didn't get to eat the jello cake yet. jason made it today...so when i get home from the concert i can have a piece. i want a piece NOW...but it's still cooling off.

tomorrow i'll make all the passes for the winners to get into ana2

when i saw my psychiatrist the other day, he told me to take one more pill of buspar a day and i can take one more sinequan at night if i have trouble falling asleep. i'm really bummed about the extra weight i've gained. after i eat my birthday cake i'm going full force with walking! i REFUSE to gain the weight back that i so diligently lost! argh.

he also gave me a number of a woman to call who helps with anxiety...i don't know if she is another shrink or what.
i'm going to cancel my appointment with my psychologist on the 22nd because she is doing me no good, although she is very nice.

anacam's very 1st archive...archived by cpr...moved here:
http://www.musetrap.com/anavoog

it's a nice little trip down memory lane :)

i think i will use the 100 dollar bill my dad gave me for my birthday to pay for everyone's sushi tonight :)

it seems that everyone is my apartment building knows what i'm up to now. i don't know who told everyone...but i have old senile women coming up to me now and saying "you're that girl with the mannequins and all the cameras!" and the people in the office also know my url and tell me that they love my site. it wigs me out a bit, but i suppose it was going to happen sooner or later. hopefully everyone will just adopt me as their resident weirdo and feel protective of me instead of hassle me like i have been in the past by a few tenants who finally, thank god, moved out a year ago.
i don't FEEL anything bad about to happen because of this. i do feel actually protected, intuitively. i hope this is the case.

[21 Apr 2002|12:53pm]
you would not believe it, but it is snowing here bigtime! just a few days ago it was 91 degrees! now it looks like christmas. VERY WEIRD.
laurie anderson was great. i'll write more about that later.
jason and i have scarfed down my birthday cake..so now i can officially start my plan to lose 5 pounds.
it's a nice lazy sunday :)

[21 Apr 2002|10:54pm]
i took out my extensions ( jason took them out for me ).
i had to. :( they were just getting too frazzled.
i MIGHT shave my hair all off tomorrow! i'll have to wait and see how i feel. right now my hair is just in lots of little braids that sonia5 braided to attach my dreads to. i could cut them off and use them for doll hair. i might do that then shave my head or something...
i feel so naked without my dreads!! aaa!

[22 Apr 2002|05:03am]

woke up for a bit 'cause my stomache is all wiggy. i hope to go to bed again SOON! meanwhile, i've been getting caught up reading LJ.
it's so cold in my apartment that i'm wearing a winter hat and a fur coat. the heat in this building was turned off. i have my oven on for heat, but it's not making a dent in the cold since i took off the plastic insulation from my windows because it was really hot here and spring WAS here, just a few days ago.
NOW what is the DEAL? grr.

[22 Apr 2002|05:07am]
i need a new design for my LJ. help.

[22 Apr 2002|05:48am]
where are all the HOME cams that dilgently broadcast 24/7 these days?
there's jennicam, spookycam, lisagoddess.com, landofvenus.com, stvlive.com...
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drawings of pooka from the contest :) [22 Apr 2002|10:59am]

are right here:
http://www.voog.com/pooka/

if you see your drawing here, you most likely won an ana2.com pass ( i have yet to make 36 username and passwords! i will soon! hopefully today :)
but there are a few in here that did not win because they didn't fulfill the 3 requirements of the contest. still, i wanted to include all the drawings 'cause i think all of them are just so darn cool :)

thank you to the people who drew these! i hope they make everyone smile as much as they made me smile :)