march 31st , 2003
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4:58pm

here is a philosophy test i took:
http://selectsmart.com/PHILOSOPHY/
and here are my results:

1. Nietzsche (100%)
2. Jean-Paul Sartre (98%)
3. David Hume (97%)
4. Spinoza (88%)
5. Stoics (77%)
6. Thomas Hobbes (75%)
7. Aquinas (69%)
8. Aristotle (68%)
9. Epicureans (61%)
10. Kant (59%)
11. Nel Noddings (55%)
12. St. Augustine (55%)
13. Cynics (52%)
14. Jeremy Bentham (52%)
15. Ayn Rand (51%)
16. John Stuart Mill (51%)
17. Plato (51%)
18. Ockham (41%)
19. Prescriptivism (33%)

i must say, i don't know much about what philosophers say about philosophy.
i just live my life how i see fit at that moment.
so i don't know what these results mean. i will have to research a bit to see why i am most like Nietzsche, Jean-Paul Sartre ,and David Hume.
i took the test rather fast, and i found the questions to be rather hard because i think i could give a different answer depending on what that question pertained to.
so i think my test results could change depending on many different factors.

<a href="http://www.selectsmart.com/PHILOSOPHY/description.html#niet">here are all the synopsis of philosophers</a>
ok, i'm looking up these people and i don't know why i tested so highly for sartre because if this is what he stands for:

"Jean-Paul Sartre (1905-1980)

When we choose something, we affirm the value of our choice because we have chosen it above other choices
When we choose something for ourselves, we should choose it for all people.
We must be consistent in our interpretations of moral situations regardless of whom the agent is.
Logic cannot help us specific situations
Making conscious moral choices is more significant than consistently following moral guidelines
The conflict between the interests of two people is in the end, irresolvable"

i really do NOT agree with that, mostly.

and here is nietzsche:
"Nietzsche, Friedrich Wilhelm (1844-1900)

We have free will
There is no God
Social conformity should not hold us back
The interests of others should not restrain us
We should be passionate beings
Masculinity, strength and passion are the highest qualities in a person
Conventional morality is a crutch to man "

i don't agree trhat there is no god.
and i don't agree that masculinity is a highest quality in a person.
i don't think it's a bad quality. it's just a quality..neither good nor bad.
i alos do not think that ALL conventional morality is a crutch.

i might agree most with aristotle....but i'm not sure.
i'll have to think about this....later.

Aristotle (384 BC-322 BC)

The life of virtue is rewarding for the individual and the community.
The essence of a thing does not exist independent of the thing.
There is no completely universal idea of "the good."
There is an individualized ideal form for all living things.
In living in accordance with their true nature, humans will find the most enjoyment out of reasoning.
An investigation of human nature can reveal how humans ought to act.
Humans have a pre-defined purpose.
People can have variations on the best way to exist in order to meet their purpose.
The mean between the extremes of any given characteristic is the ideal.
The rule of the "Golden Mean" is not to be applied mechanically
Aristotle discusses having practical knowledge as being able to have the right means to one's action and the right ends

march 30th , 2003

1:50am

today i went to see a play at the guthrie with my dad. we went to see "six degrees of separation". it was absolutely amazing! i had seen the movie before. i highly recommend it.

i'm thinking of having a crochet night at my house. like, maybe on tuesday night. we can crochet and i could teach the basics of crochet. and eat and be merry :) anyone interested? (girls only)

march 28th , 2003

RE-ADD ME TO YOUR FRIENDS LIST!

i did an incredibly stupid thing and accidentally turned my lj into a community. and when i turned it back into a personal journal, it purged me from your friends list if you had me listed as a friend. i am not on your friends list right now. so please readd me! what a huge drag. go here:

http://www.livejournal.com/friends/add.bml?user=ana

and you can click on a button to re-add me. i am sorry for this hassle. but not as sorry as i am for accidentally doing this! i guess the only positive of this is it gets rid of all the dead journals (people who have abandoned their journals) that linked to me, so everything will be more current. and there certainly were a lot of those.

10:47am

beauty and ugliness.
it's confusing to me when a person can create such beautiful things yet be such an ugly person. or...maybe more exactly...they contain in themselves great beauty and also great ugliness. we are all that way to an extent, i suppose. or we all have the potential to be like that. like salvador dali was a nazi sympathizer. or led zeppelin's guitarist was a huge mysogynist.
it makes me sad when these beautiful things are tainted when i find out that there is a huge ugliness inside them. i think, how can a person who holds that much hate inside make something so life affirming as that? how does that work out?

like talking about the war has brought out such ugliness in people i would have never thought had that in them. it confuses me. obviously, they are still beautiful people...beautiful for what you did see in them that is still there. and they still can make beautiful things. or do beautiful things. they are still capable of great love and tenderness.
but inside is this monster, too. something that is beyond opposite of what you thought they were. somehow they are both people. it's hard for me to merge that together into one person.
i have a hard time reconciling that.
and it's hard for me to ever see their beauty in the same light ever again.
although i really wish i could.

10:09am

wow. i am shaking.
i just went to check in on a journal of a person who i thought was a friend and found them saying horrible horrible things about me.
and not only that, then another person who i thought was my friend (but was acting weird around me for quite awhile...didn't know why) also saying horrible horrible things. i mean, as bad as it could get.
and then about 5 other people who i know hate my guts saying equally horrible things.
just absolute lies about me. and just weird how birds of a feather flock together.
weird how so many people who hate me can find each other in livejournalland as if they had homing devices to each other. absolutely wild how that works.
and i am just shaking and crying now.
i wrote to this person but i have a feeling from what they said that they will be happy i am feeling this way now. i am in utter shock. and just. i just feel awful.
i don't know why or how people can be so evil.
so full of hate.
and now i am paranoid that somehow this friends only post will make it into their hands and they will just laugh at me.

i haven't gone to sleep yet.
i am so tired. but my adrenalin is shooting through me and making me shakey and nauseous.

i mean, i'm used to people saying horrible things about me. as used to it as one could get. it still hurts.
but this....this one really really especially hurts.

1:09am

what i wore to the symphony.

 

12:48am