march 25th , 2003
    
     
     

10:08p:
i need some sushi.

9:59p:
playful monkeys.
and boobies.

9:58p:
little poofy clouds.
and muffins.

9:57p:
candy sprinkles.
and kitties.

9:55p:
happy happy bunnies.
and sunshine.

9:29pm

ok, i'm stopping with war talk now because i just cannot fucking handle it any more.
i have met some new cool friends because i have gone out there and spoken how i feel. but i am so sickened by some people's responses and i can see how this world is such a screwed up place.
i have seen so much brainwashing and hate and complacency and idiocy and prejudice and fear and even when somone speaks out against atrocity...it seems the most rage people can muster is about "LJ CUT".

there have been some people who have been not been this way and i thank you for that. it's because of you i don't just go and throw myself off a bridge right now in utter disgust at humanity. *drama queen mode on*

and now i have so much anger and fear in me and i have to get rid of it. so i have to step back and stop talking about this for my own sanity.

i am so angry and disgusted right now i cannot even put it into words.

i'm going to go ground myself and move through this and get myself back into a more positive place. because i don't want to just sit here and add to the hate.

but on a positive note, i guess i am happy that some people showed their true ugly colours so i could have the opportunity to ban then from my journal.

because i don't need that hateful warmongering racist murderous crap anywhere near me. and i'm glad i can tune it out in a peaceful and nonviolent way.

for all of those who don't agree with me and didn't come in here and say mean crap and try to undermine me. THANK YOU.
i have a lot of respect for that. that was a very respectful thing to do.
thank you so much for not adding to my pain.

1:31am

IS THIS LIBERATION?

prettier pix in yesterday's anagram