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i am watching
"who wants to marry a millionaire"
what a fuct thing that is. in case u don't know what it is..it's a game show
where a bunch of women are selected to try to win a marriage to a multimillionaire.
whoever wins at the end gets to marry him, without ever having met him. u
don't even get 2 see this guy. really fucking sick. nice message to put out.
women can be bought, and nothing matters about a man except his money. gross.
still, here i am watching it because i just can't believe it.
here is part of an email i wrote:
it's 6:30am and i've been up all night making little valentine surprises for jason...leaving little hearts with messages in his computer and in his coat pocket and in his wallet and in his jeans, and i even boiled him egs for breakfast then wrote messages to him on the shells and stuck them in the fridge! and i wrote him a love message in HTML with lipstick on the bathroom mirror and wrote " i love u jason" with my lite brite and stuck it in the bathroom so when he gets up he'll see it :) and i left him a message in notepad on his desktop i didn't know lite brites were so hard 2 do! gack! u cannot make werdz with that thing! it looks like a two year old made it! :) then when he gets him i'm gonna take him out 2 dinner..if i can find a cool place! i forgot 2 make reservations! and i got bought him 3 hour long massages at this cool spa! he has done some really cool expensive things for me on previous valentines and stuff, so i owe him one! i'm usually so terrible at doing anything cool for anyone on a day that i'm supposed to do anything cool! so..i'm trying to be better! i like doing cool stuff for people when they least expect it on unimportant days best :) jason got me this cool thing u thing that holds melted paraffin..then u dip your hands and feet into the paraffin and it relaxes u :) it feels REALLY freaky and cool,and it looks spooky! i'm gonna take some pix with it with my cam sometime! and dip things into the wax and take strange drippy pix :)
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there is so much more i have 2 say, but i'm too tired 2 type it. still not fully recovered from my cold, i think. i still have 2 get all the new anapix up! but i might just do that tomorrow.
i got 2 hear an mp3 of the cam clan panel today i was on. god, what a freak i was.here is what i wrote roy, from hearme.com, about it:
GOD, i feel kind of WORSE about how i talked now that i heard it! my voice was REALLY nervous, i didn't even sound like myself! i don't like the sound of my voice anyway..but my voice that night was particularily shaky and whiny sounding or something. also, i sure did repeat myself on some things! and just...had a very hard and long time reading that thing on my computer because i was SO nervous! i am kind of surprised that people came up to me and said they loved my speech so much, because it was very warbly and rambling and i was pretty much hard to follow a lot of the times because my brain was just exploding! well, i have a lot to learn from that, so i thank u for letting me hear that so i can become a better speaker, because i have a ways to go before i'm at all good! i'm going to be on a panel about webcams at south by southwest in march so it was good to hear what i said and how i said it so i can greatly improve my speaking skills! yikes! i thought jennifer was the most eloquent and classy :) *sigh* but i am what i am...jennifer tilly on speed or something! man oh man ha! live and learn! i will definitely learn from this! i'm just glad that people liked what i said so much , anyway :)
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i am debating whether or not 2 put the mp3 up for u all 2 hear...because i am quite embarrassed by it. maybe tomorrow when i'm feeling better i'll post a link 2 it. right now i don't have the guts!
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and to all the new people who joined because jennifer linked to me, hi! i wish i felt more "with it" to say to u all properly! i hope u will come and post in the ana2 forum and say hi to all the incredible people in there! wow..i would say so much more but i just was watching the end of the who wants to marry a multimillionaire show and it was SO FREAKY!!! i just don't know WHAT 2 think!
so hello hello hello! i shall write more later! soon i'll be better! and my mind has also been on this south by southwest thing i'm going to be on a panel there, too about webcams! so...so much! brain...full...puppies running around my livingroom like crazy! jason is applying to try to get into to this master's programme and he is writing essays and it's been really nuts around here!
hey, and i was just reading my email and it looks like jennifer will perhaps be going to the south by southwest thing, too! yay! i told her about it today, she thought i was going there because of my music, she didn't know there was a panel about cams! so i said, you should go too! so i really hope she will go 'cause she will make me feel so much better and we can go exploring austin texas together! :)