anagram 02.11.99

egads...had an embarrassing episode of an an anxiety attack like some bad tv drama ER thing. stupid. surreal embarrassing . ridiculous. EXPENSIVE. fuck. no health insurance. stupid. dumb. want to forget about it. i'm going to go hide under the covers now and turn on the cartoon channel. here's some art I made yesterday…ironically called "centre" and variations of that. hilarious. I need TO center …not to go to the ER centre.

dang. hello! wake up! *smacks head in disbelief* there was a small blizzard of sorts here today. it rained ice. one of the 1st things I did today is go with jason as he was getting his hair cut..i wanted to go pick out the colour of hair extensions I'm going to get next month. after that I was all happy, then BOOM..fell flat on my ass into the icy sidewalk…actually I shouldn't say ass..it was my knee..blocking the fall with my hand. ouch. later on the day got better, watched time bandits. then..the anxiety attack came on..i don't want to go into it because I feel to stupid about it. all I'll say is that when I was in the ambulance I just kept bawling "I cannot afford this. I cannot afford this!" it was kind of seinfeld/x-files/ tv drama very tired now..but still hyper , too. the wind is howling and whistling. I hope the dogs are quiet tonight.