FUCK.

ok, as you know, i didn't do my taxes from 1998- 2001.

so the government came after me for possible tax evasion. i handed over to them all my receipts, etc. they looked them all over and decided my case was not a criminal case and told me to just do my taxes like normal and hand it all in.

(when i handed them my receipts they told me they would photo copy everything.)

they returned the box of receipts to me a few months ago, i ASSUMED. i just opened the box now only to discover that they only gave me back my receipts for 2001!!!!!!

so i am now without my receipts for 3 fucking years.

so now i need to get over there to their office and see what the fucking deal is. *PANIC*

they truly had BETTER have a photo copy of all my receipts or have my receipts or i am going to FREAK the FUCK out.

* As late as 1998 the US was paying the salary of every single Taliban's official in Afghanistan?

* There is more oil and gas in the Caspian Sea area than in Saudi Arabia, but you need a pipeline through Afghanistan to get the oil out.

* UNOCAL, a giant American Oil conglomerate, wanted to build a 1,000 mile long pipeline from the Caspian Sea through Afghanistan to the Arabian Sea.

* UNOCAL spent $10,000,000,000 on
geological surveys for pipeline construction, and very nicely courted the Talibans for their support in allowing the construction to begin.

* All of the leading Taliban officials were in Texas negotiating with UNOCAL in 1998.

* 1998-1999 the Talibans changed its mind and threw UNOCAL out of the country and awarded the pipeline project to a company from Argentina.

* John Maresca, VP of UNOCAL testified before Congress and said no pipeline until the Talibans was gone and a more friendly government was established.

* 1999-2000 The Talibans became the most evil people in the world.

* Niaz Naik, a former Pakistani Foreign Secretary, was told by senior American officials in mid-July (2000) that military action against Afghanistan would go ahead by the middle of October (2000).

** 9/11 WTC disaster.

** Bush goes to war against Afghanistan even though none of the hijackers came from Afghanistan.

* Bush blamed Bin Laden but has never offered any proof saying it's a "secret".

.* Talibans offered to negotiate to turn over Bin Laden if we showed them some proof. We refused; we bombed.

* Bush said: "This is not about nation building. It's about getting the terrorists."

* We have a new government in Afghanistan.

* The leader of that government formerly
worked for UNOCAL (Hamid Karrzai).

* Bush appoints a special envoy to represent the US to deal with that new government, who formerly was the "chief consultant to UNOCAL" (Lakhdar Ibrahimi).

* The Bush family acquired their wealth through oil?

* Bush's Secretary of Interior was the President of an oil company before going to Washington.

* George Bush Sr. (Father) now works with the "Carlysle Group" specializing in huge oil investments around the world.

* Condoleezza Rice worked for Chevron before gong to Washington.

* Chevron named one of its newest "supertankers" after Condoleezza.

* Dick Cheney worked for the giant oil conglomerate Haliburton before becoming VP of USA.

* Haliburton gave Cheney $34,000,000,000 as a farewell gift when he left Haliburton.

* Haliburton is in the pipeline construction business.

* There is $6 Trillion dollars worth of oil in the Caspian Sea area.

* The US government quietly announces Jan 31, 2002 we will support the construction of the Trans-Afghanistan pipeline.

* President Musharref (Pakistan), and Karrzai, (Afghanistan - Unocal) announce agreement to build proposed gas pipeline from Central Asia to Pakistan via Afghanistan. (Irish Times 02/10/02)

3:07p:

i'm scared about bush's speech tonight.
i just know it's going to make me extremely pissed off.
augh.

i'm trying to stay as numb as possible to this whole war thing because i just can't deal with the fact that i have absolutely no control over how this whole war thing is going to go. i have no control over how many people will die. i have no control over how many people will live.

i'm trying to stay as calm as possible. i'm just going to create my own little haven in my life and hope that some of my peace radiates outward to the universe.
i don't want to add anger. i don't want to add any more fear to the universe.
but i am not going to beat myself up if i do.

i AM angry. i AM fearful.

another thing i am fearful and angry about is this whole overturning roe vs wade thing which people are chipping away at bit by bit as most of us assume that abortion will always be legal and safe and therefore this is not an important issue.

to all the people who don't think that it is an important issue and who voted people in who are chipping away at my safety i scream a hearty FUCK YOU into the inner ear of your soul.

i don't know what else to say. i am exasperated.