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i got the beginning of the anacam personals section up! search for your soulmate or partner in crime!
www.anacam.com/personals

i know you are probably sick of thinking about it, but just in case you're not:
here are all the emails that i received and posts ( all names and personal references deleted ) that were from the whole porn discussion ( anagram122399 and analog 122399 ) i'm putting them all in here so everyone can see the variety of responses because i think we all can benefit from more understanding about this subject. as u can see from the sheer volumne of responses i received, it has me pondering and pondering! and click here to read all the comments that were made in the ana2 forum ( the ones that were made on the anacam forum, anarchy, were deleted before i could save them )

i was up until 6am making this anagram, then i got up at 10:30am and worked on it some more and now it's almost noon. i want to go back 2 bed, my sleeping schedule is now fuct again. current temperature: 8 degrees farenheit.

trying 2 get back into the swing of stream of consciousness writing, but it's all choppy trying 2 write it because #1 i'm tired and #2 i'm thinking about it to much as i write it, so that kind of defeats the purpose.
tomorrow at 6pm i'm going 2 get together with renee, the drummer from my band, the blue up? carolyn won't be able 2 make it 'cause she's out of town for the weekend. all three of us are going to try to just pick a day each month where we all get together 'cause if we wait around for each other to call, we never get together.

it's so dry in my house my nose is bleeding. i have to get more humidifiers. the one we have is in the thing room with the piano. i was boiling kettles of water in the kitchen the other day just to get it more humid in here, but i don't think that was working very well.

well, this is not at all very interesting! so i'm going 2 stop here. i just feel very internal. not very verbal nor visual. i'm in the mood to cut and paste and do repetitive chores like stapling. which works out fine because i FINALLY sent off the holiday cards to u, which i turned into UNholiday cards! now the next batch is going to be valentine's, so send me your snail mail addy again, and i'll send one to u, and if you're lucky , you'll be getting that around easter :) my email is ana@voog.com
i think i am in the mood to make little postcards and send them 2 u, i want to make something tangible and physical, but don't want to jump head first into painting a 12 foot painting. i just wanna doodle and staple. and i REALLY REALLY REALLY want one of those polaroid izone cameras with the sticky film! have u seen them? they are SO CUTE! they take littl emini photos about 2 inches long, then u peel them off and they are stickers! so if i can just find out where i can buy one, i think it'd be really cool to stick mini polaroids onto the postcards 2 send u , so everyoine gets a "real" and unique picture! they don't sell them online at www.polaroid.com i wish they did! and i can't find where i could buy one online. i don't know how much they cost or how much the film costs. i think it's pretty cheap, tho. but i could go through a billion rolls of film on those things! oooooooooo :)
that's what i'm in the mood to do! also , i HAVE to get address stickers with my address on them, 'cause writing out my address onto 100 postcards was no fun. and then writing out all of your addresses was no fun. it took up way to much time i could have spent on doddling on the postcards instead. that's why it took me forever 2 get them of to u! i need to put in everyone's address into the computer, then get my printer hooked up and print them out. then get stickers with my address on them, and then i REALLY need a rubber stamp kit so i can just stamp on sentences that i want yo say to everyone, so i don't have to write them out 100 times! then this will leave me with much more time to personalize each postcard! and now i can go out and buy all the gorgeous stationary and stickers and pens that i want because i will actually have many people to write 2 on it! i just LOVE stationary and stickers and pens and glitter glue and special paper and evelopes and wax sealers and stamps and all that sooooooo much! i think i could dedicate the rest of my life just to the art of writing letters! which is why i have this site...because it's a big cyber letter :) but i feel a need right now to send physical tangible paper letters! THAT is what i want to do, more than anything right now. who knows why? i don't know! but i'm going to go with it :)

also, if u have ever ever sent me anything to my p.o. box, please email me and tell me your snail mail addy so i can send u a special thank u thing. because i have really been beyond lame at ever sending people thank you's for gifts and that is REALLY bad of me and i feel just terrible about it. i am so sorry. the thing is, the more important something is to me in regards to other people, the least likely i am to get back to that person because i want to do something so special for them, that i get paralyzed over what to do, because i feel like i don't want 2 send them just a lame email thank u, i want to do something cool! so then it never gets done because i get overwhelmed, so please please understand and i'm trying 2 mend my ways! i guess this is my belated new years resolution! to write people back thank u notes ALWAYS!
and i don't have everyone's snail mail addresses...i should have written them all down, but i didn't! bad bad bad of me. i am sorry! truly!

hopefully i can get this message out to almost everyone who has ever sent me something to my p.o. box! i call upon the angels to carry this message 2 everyone who has ever sent me anything 2 my p.o. box! and i pray u will understand and forgive me for my silly procrastination! i am going 2 be a better person about this from now on! :)

when the blue up? ( my band of 11 years ) was together, we had a great mailing list! we played 2 shows a month about and we'd send of mailing to tell people about our shows. we'd have people sign up for it at our shows. then everyday almost, i would cut out and save cool pictures and words from magazines and other cool things i'd find, and LOTS of glitter...and i would hand draw each mailing list message then xerox it off for everyone. and then when we had a show coming up, my band would all get together and we'd sit on my floor and stuff envelopes full of pictures and words and drawings and glitter. each envelope would be so full that when a person opened it, it would explode onto their floor all this glitter. :)
i really miss doing that, and i want to get back to doing that again. but we HAD to stop because it started to take us 6 hours just to do all the envelopes, and it ended up costing us a few hundred bucks to mail them all out, which was what we were getting paid to play. so we would spend all our money of what we would make at each show just to tell people about our show! i remember our last mailing , we were up until 5am stuffing these envelopes! we were exhausted! ( and we'd also dropped acid...so it was rather difficult! )...so that was our last mailing.

so i don't know how many or how often i could send letters out...because of all the effort and the expense....but maybe i could send out some every 6 months or so...especially if people sent me stamps to help out. it was so much fun saving cool pictures and words and then combining them for strange surreal serendipity when the people opened them!

i get happy just thinking about it :) i just want to do things in small ways right now. i think when i think to hugely...like in making an entire record..i get paralyzed at the thought of it. so i will keep with my original thought which is to make recordings and on my 4 track and to put them out at handmade singles. i don't want 2 think in terms of a huge record. i get overwhelmed. so cool little postcards and letters and little cool 4 track recordings is where i'll stay right now. maybe i will make little handmade art to go along with each single, like how i had planned eons ago. duh. why didn't i remember that? it's so clear now what i want 2 do. 4 track recordings with handmade covers to go along. duh! sometimes i can get so paralyzed with so many ideas that i get lost. back to the basics! i just need 2 get one of those groovy polaroid izone cameras :)

okokokokokok :) i feel happy :)