anagram 01.05.99

Hello :) today I did a lot, which is why u didn't see me on cam much. Got up and balanced my checkbook, paid the bills, sent off mail, went off and did a million errands , exploring skyways. Skyways..a whole other world! I kinda did a bit of complusive shoping today, that I'm trying not 2 feel guilty about. But it's nothing big..i bought this ring that exactly like the ring I always wear..i was astonished 2 find an exact replica..and the same size, so now I'm rearranging all my rings all over deciding what should go where. It was $22. Then I bought a very small bracelet that was $24. It was so simple and it fit my wrist exactly! Then I bought three of the stones that have words carved in them. Have u seen them? They r all over the place around here. My mom's birthday is coming up so I bought her one that said "faith", then I bought my dad one that says "courage", and I bought my friend spirit from IRC , one that said "spirit". I don't think he's a member of ana2, so don't tell him! But if u see him in IRC tell him I bought him a surprise. He is one of the first people I ever met when I was introduced 2 computers. I was on MSN then, and they had a bbs called "the new age bbs". It was the most remarkable place I've ever been 2 on the net..i haven't found anything 2 compare 2 it. It was a REAL community. Everyone there helped everyone else out…we all wrote whatever we felt like….i cannot explain it..it's too complex to put in words. Anyway, it's gone now L that was way before I ever had a cam or even thought about having one. Have u ever run into a bbs that was truly the most amazing community ever? We had such a balance there, and people felt free 2 say anything. We all grew as writers and as people. It was such a frooty new age place…but in the best way. We all had a great sense of humour about our spirituality, even tho we took it seriously. Spirit is an incredible writer, maybe with his permission, I'll put some of his writings in here. They have such a great sense of the absurd in them, but are so real. Anyway..there's that.

Back 2 shopping :) . then I bought some lancolme make up. Some foundation, some lipstick, some eyeliner. Egads that stuff is expensive…and it's SO HARD to find the right colours/staying power/texture etc. that u have 2 buy HUNDREDS of dollars worth of make up before u get the perfect combinations…and then u just pray that your fave kind won't get discontinued! I find that when I talk about make up in IRC..all the women get very excited…but all the men moan. And I'm not trying 2 b sexist here..this has really been my experience 100%! A shame, 'cause the world of make up is exciting and sensuous! I think most men look great with a bit of make up on…especially eyeliner. Jason looks so sexy in eyeliner.oooooooooooo :) So, anyway , back 2 what I was saying…I'm sick of the way I use make up…I want a change. I've always gone for the loads of cleopatra black eyeliner with the reddist lips I can get. And that will always be wondrous. But sometimes I just don't think that looks as good on me as it once did. I think it has to do with age (sigh). Big dramatic things make me look sometimes tired. I need something softer. So I'm trying out shades that just simply highlight more…experimenting around with that. I still want dramatic…just earthier. So I think it's going 2 b awhile until I figure out the right combination.

A&E are coming here 2 film me perhaps in 5 days..so I wanted 2 figure this out now, as much as possible. I don't know what I'll do about my hair..since it's still not long enough 2 get extensions and it's in this horrid in between waiting stage..i might try wearing a scarf on my head..or hat. I used 2 b really into hats. I had a trillion of them. Then one day I just wasn't into them anymore. I had some gorgeous beaded ones from the 20's with ostrich feathers! I think I gave that one 2 my mom…I should see if she still has it!

I also bought some pretty yellow flowers for jason today :) he likes flowers that are exotic looking…so I thought these would do. I love 2 surprise him with little things 'cause I love him so :)

I'm really nervous about the A&E thing. I want everything 2 b perfect. So I have 2 clean like a maniac ( or throw everything in the closet!). and jason and I want 2 get most of the new designs for anacam and ana2 up by the time they come here. I'm so excited!

I want to get one of those things that has all the ring sizes on it..so I can measure my toes. I want to buy thin little sterling silver rings for all my toes! And when I figure out..or have the time to do the henna tattooing thing, jason said he'd like one on him, too. Adornment!

The pictures that are in this anagram are from yesterday, before my headache got worse. Yesterday was pretty much a lost day…I had another horrid headache and basically slept all day or laid there watching tv. God, I hate the headaches I get. And I never usually get one that bad AFTER my period. Total drag.

And today I didn't maker any cool pix on the cam or draw 'cause I was busy doing the errands and cleaning the house. I don't have the cams set up yet where they can follow me everywhere I go, when I'm moving so quickly. Someday I'll get that set up. When I get more money..more time.

That's it for today. I have star trek ( new generation) in the background. It's soothing 2 me..as nerdy as this is…star trek is kinda like my "home on tv". I love the sounds of the ship..the familiar voices. Because it's such a "good" show and has been with me all my life..it feels comforting 2 have it on :). I like the old star trek and the new. But I like the new better. I never thought that in the beginning of the new star trek tho. I was so oppsosed 2 it..i wouldn't watch it for the first few seasons..then I finally realised it was great! Voyager can b good 2 sometimes, but deep space 9 kinda sucks..although the 1st season premiere of it was ABSOLUTELY amazing!!! If they would have just kept with how deep and spiritual that 1st episode was, I would've been hooked.